| **Kidneythieves - Zerospace**
†sounds like†::muse - hypermusic
†feels like†:: sooooo sick of schoolwork
†tastes like†:: grapefruit
†looks like†:: tired
†BBC, etc. Junkie †
Quote of the Day: Until you know that life is interesting - and find it so - you haven't found your soul. ~Geoffrey Fisher
I DON'T UNDERSTAND how someone who seemed like a really cool person could turn out to be SO TWISTED AND CORRUPT! DUDE. And how someone can lie to you LIE TO YOU AND THEMSELVES! It's so soulless to me! It's just so disgusting I don't want to talk about it anymore. I'm so hurt and angry about it. That's why I'm staying single for a while. That situation happens too much. As Stephanie says, just stick to older guys.
5.8.04 I had the weirdest dream last night. Sachi and I went to visit the boonies in the South, and we were searching for pink flipflops. Then we realized they were stuck inside of the TV, so we tried to hitch a ride to get to the place where they were advertising to buy pink flipflops, but everyone was a bastard, so we found ourself stuck in the boonies at sundown. Then some creepy guy parked in the parking lot and got out of the car walking towards us. Then I woke up. I guess it means buy pink flipflops before some creepy guy steals them first?
Okay so MUSE!
The concert was fantastico! It was like...OMG beautiful. This dumb group wouldn't go away. The opening group. They weren't bad or anything, they just weren't Muse, so I didn't care too much for them. The bassist was cute. In a petite way. The drummer reminded me of the gluestick people. I was so angry every time that they started a new song. I was like I want to be fucking depressed NOW! Okay, so fuck them.
MUSE! Ah! Okay so I was in the front and Matt was right in front of me. I swear it was like being in front of... ... an angel or some other shit you wouldn't think you'd see. Okay so I won't go gaga over him in this entry for your sake, but everyone looked how they really looked! Dom plays drums like a happy puppy. Like it's so weird. In videos and photoshoots, he's always a bit neernt. Even in concert vids I have, well they don't show him as much as Matt or Chris, but he's just a drummer. He was like a crazy mad loveable puppy. Matt didn't wear white. Thank God. And he shaved. Yes I'm the fashion police! He wore his Newborn pants and my favorite type of shirt. Black n red western cowboy style shirt. And Chris wore his usual black tshirt with jeans. YES if you hadn't noticed, clothes are important to me.
Okay Chris's bass was red Pedulla, oh and Dom's drumset was black. I was so confused when I saw a red one cos my eyes are not used to it so I was freaking out that they were going to be hella different, but that was the other band's drumset so I relaxed. YES I'm a fangirl. So anyways Matt used my favorite guitar of his! Okay lemme see if I can get this right. He used silver Manson (he should have used the laser one cos it has lasers activated by his playing, but whatever), black one, gibson sg, and something else i can't recall I THINK. I wish he'd use the gibson from plug-in baby:(
So it was so great cos they played old and new songs. They played the best old songs! They played citizen erased and dead star, newborn, bliss, space dementia, sunburn, apocalypse please, TIRO, stockholme syndrome, sing for absolution, hysteria, butterflies and hurricanes, falling away with you, tsp, and some others from the new album i forget what they are called. Then they just fooled around towards the end just doing cool improv shit. Ha! At first I thought they were going to cover a Rage Against the Machine song, but then I realized they were just playing whatever set came to mind.
Ah! The sound cut off once or something, then the firealarm went off because of the smoke. It was pretty dumb. It stopped during sunburn but luckily they started over again. Dominic and Chris handed out drinks and cups to people and threw beer in my eye. Well not directly in my eye, but on us and some landed in my eye haha. Aaanyways. Matt played drums and then Chris played drums. It was pretty entertaining concert, it leaned more towards their metal roots towards the end. Chris threw Dom's drumstick into the audience and I guess Long got wacked in the head. He bent down to pick it but some girl pushed him out of the way to get it and HE DIDN'T FIGHT HER BACK!!! GAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!! Ah fuck it. What's done is done. I dunno, I just turned around and some fat chick who looked like Kelly Osbourne was behind me. "Long! What happened to you! Take off those atrocious earrings!" She was scary. Dude he took good pics tho. i mean they all were ...neernt...but his actually came out haha! Thx babe. I'll post pics later. I'm gonna be busy as hell for the next few days.
It was sexy when Matt stood on the speaker and microphone and played the guitar. And he skipped around like a happy bat too.
Ah and there were these two girls beside me who reminded me of Grace and I how we were in high school with Glay. I participated with them, but it still made me feel old, saying "I remember back in the day blah dee blah". It was a pretty cool concert. The people were nice. There were some dorks there, but they had no balls that's why they shouted. I just really wanted to get drunk. I've wanted to since then. I dunno why. I never have before. I'm fine. I just wanna get drunk. NOT high.
It was cool to be in the front tho. I dunno I never thought they'd come to the US. I've been waiting for so long you know? I just thought they wouldn't. They hate our government and they hate Los Angeles, but I guess they love money HAHAHA. I wanna visit their hometown. NOT because of them. Before I had even heard of Muse, I had the dream of retiring in Devonshire. It seems like a cool place. Maybe Exeter, cos I don't think I will be so old that I want to do absolutely nothing. But yeah they are from around that area so it's cool. NEXT JJ72 have to come back. They came for their first two albums. they are working on their third. I am stoked! It's gonna be great.
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5.9.04 Mum tried to throw the roses Long gave me away! How horrible! Yeah...they are dead now, but my favorite roses next to red roses are dead roses^_^And I got both! Yay!
Yeah so yesterday I went to visit Danielle at her aunt's woah this is freaking me out typing cos my ears are jacked up. I went to visit her and we talked till like almost 5 when I was supposed to come home so I called my folks and asked to stay the night. It's cool they did. We had fun. We guy-bashed and watched bad cyborg movies and Brini Maxwell. I cooked dinner but it was so messed up cos her aunt is like an anorexic workout freak so there's like nothing in the fridge but catfood and spinach. So i was making a pasta dish and I had to go buy herbs cos all she had was garlic and paprika, and like she didn't even have a cookie sheet so I ended up baking cookies on the broiler, and woah that turned out like hell. Ah! Her aunt is like a supreme Beatles fan. I had fun with that, hippie dancing and all.
Then like at 1:30 Richard arrived. I dunno why the hell he came. I mean, he hardly had gas left and he's having car trouble yet he came all the way to Folsom. AND at 1:30! It was very sweet though that he came that way. We figured he got lost since it was so dark and the roads are tricky. But he actually found his way there. So we all watched this weird cyborg movie starring 3 Chinese dudes who looked like they should be in a boy band, the guy who married Phoebe from friends, and some black guy. It was really weird cos the killer cyborg looked like a power ranger. It was dumb, but she had basic cable so that was like all there was to watch.
Dude! I bought some french bread, meat, and brie cheese cos you know, i like it right? Well at this dumb gated community supermarket, they charged $8 for 3 slices prosciutto, so I got this other meat that looked like it. And so I was chowin down on bread, cheese, and meat and i was like DUDE why is it taking so long to chew this meat! It's hella gummy! But I kept eating it cos it was good. Then I thought...wait...it's WAY too gummy and stretchy....so I popped it in the microwave and it came out looking like jacked up ham or bacon so I was calmed that it wasn't raw meat. Then the next morning I was going to make breakfast and I was wondering if I could use that meat as a substitute for bacon or was it like pepperoni or something, and Rich was like GIRL IT SAYS ON HERE, ALWAYS REMEMBER TO REFRIGERATE RAW MEATS. AAAAGHGH! I ATE RAW PORK BELLY! AAAAAAAGHGH! I was wondering why it was so freaking chewy!
Okay so anyways, at least I'm not dead. yes Richard and I got in a fight as usual. it's so funny too cos Danielle and I were talking about how guys are too high maintenance and it's kind of dumb to invest time in them at this point unless you wanna get tied down or hurt or something cos they JUST DON'T MAKE SENSE. So yeah we were watching tv and Richard tried to kiss me and I said no cos Danielle was coming back....and he gets HELLA PISSED and gets up, takes his things, and marches out of the house to leave!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!! REALLY!!! WHO DOES THAT!!??? And then he was like complaining about a bunch of stuff blah blah blah anyways it's all settled and stuff you know, he was just hurt that I didn't wanna kiss him or something, and you know i'm a big tease unfortunately, but yeah, that didn't last for long lol
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I dunno. I don't understand anymore. I don't have the endurance. He's hilarious. I'd never live with him if someone paid me 1 million bucks. Sorry but it's true.Dude Danielle's aunt's house is empty except for artwork cos she's hella rich and has tons of antiques and stuff. We are so clumsy. i kept kicking over or stepping in the cat food and he kept knocking over the cats water. Then like, I went to bed earlier than him, so I didn't know anything had been left out, but when I went to the kitchen this morning, he left the ice cream out overnight! He left the bread out and he never finished his soda. And the pizza bites! And something else which I won't discuss but made me really paranoid of freaking Danielle out. I'm glad Danielle's laidback tho. Unlike me. Yeah I noticed I treat Richard like a puppy. But he's goin around knocking down stuff and shit. I do too, but geeeez. Ah. I dunno. Sometimes he's really cool and sometimes...he's interesting. Agh, grace I'll talk to you later. It's all good, it's just....yeah I'll talk to you later. Don't ASSUME things because you're most likely wrong:p I know you
I'm happy tho. We had fun. We hulahooped and watched a cyborg marathon and man-bashed when Richard wasn't around (not like we always man-bashed, we've just had men-bashing worthy events happen). Dude, I need to quit with my bad habits tho. It's so much better when someone doesn't like your bad habits than when someone doesn't care, cos then you'll be more motivated to work on them. I miss Danielle! I think I'll go vist her again next weekend.
This weekend has made me want to live in an apartment. Well yeah I'll move to one this summer, but I mean with people I KNOW. Like only with certain of my friends can we all hate sunlight and heat, dance to the Beatles at midnight, eat dinner at 2:30 am, eat cheese and bread all day, watch a cyborg marathon, and work out for hours. It also made me realize how impossible it is for me to live with guys! Geez! They're great and all but geez! Boy do you guys need us! We need you too though. But Geez!
yeah...I didn't get drunk and dance, but I danced like I was. that's good enough for me.
I have so much shit to do. My foundation plan with 3 sectional views is due tomorrow at 3 and I haven't even started. My paper for my Art History final project is due tomorrow night. But I'm so sore and tired from that little toddler's bed or whatever, I don't even care right now. I'm going to take a nice long nap.
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Got this from Grace^_^
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__________________________________________________ Siam Shade - Bloody Train You hear adout it on the news
All day, everynight
Another sick sadistic crime realized
Did it excite you to take somebody's life
Did you think about the people
Who stay behind and cry about it
The coach is at the platform
Come along and step inside now
'Cause it's time to pay the piper
Got you ticket and your ridin' tonight
Bloody train is carryin' souls of tainted minds
Hated, forgotten, but left unforgiven
Endless night, another forsaken passenger fades into the dark
Here, take this picture with you please
Memory of you crime
Those lips will never smile again, eyes won't shine
Did papa hit you ?
Did mom keep you inside ?
Did your sister always tease you ?
And tattle tale your lies, or was it
Your brother took your best toys
And favorite teddy bear, too ?
Anyway you're on the train now
And no excuse could ever justify you
Bloody train no stopping for pleas or alibis
Madness corrupting the world we all live in
Endless night, it's silent, white faced, dark eyed driver,
He knows who you are
Bloody train a no mercy one way ticket ride
Into a bitter and lonely dimension
Endless night, no color, no motion and no light, no moon and no stars
Bloody train a no mercy one way ticket ride
Into a bitter and lonely dimension
Endless night, no color, no motion and no light, no moon and no stars
Bloody train is carryin' souls of tainted minds
Hated, forgotten, but left unforgiven
Endless night, another forsaken passenger fades into the dark | 
Talking much about oneself can also be a means to conceal oneself. Friedrich Nietzsche 
